Well, for a minute, I'd like to delve into something a bit religious, so, anyone who may be offended by this little bit... Just ignore it. Please.

I took a walk the other day. I had a couple friends over (one of which was Gamerx13) and I stayed up all night. Didn't want to sleep. Everyone else fell asleep while I was still awake (although I eventually crashed later on, mid-to-late-morning). So, I decided to make cinammon rolls for everyone (my two guests, father, and I). In the meantime, while I was waiting for them to cook (or maybe before I'd even started to cook them), I took a walk. I went down the street, around the cul-de-sac, and back. During this brief walk, I talked to God, verbally and mentally on-&-off. He told me wonderful things, all of which I wanted to know, and this time, I'm sure it wasn't just my heart... I'm reassured that everything will turn out just as I'd like it to, if not better... But things will only happen when the time is right, which I believe to be in about a couple of years. With that being said... I'm really happy because He's told me that there are great things to come... But I mustn't reveal these publicly. I already seem like a delusional, religious fanatic, and I've reason not to explain what's in store. A select few of you will be filled in on everything. Anyone who asks will not be told. I already know who it's best to tell, and they are the only ones I shall confide to, in regards to this matter. That's that.

Now, I'd like to give a little back-story. Prior to this walk, I made a great realization. Every time I wind up in the situation I'm in, things revert back to normal... With time. And they always have the potential to get better, but due to a lack of initiative taken to improve the most basic things, the eventual turn-out's not been as great as it could have been... However, the bar has been raised this time, and I can say that already, I've cleared it. Things are much better than they were before. I just have to keep at what I'm doing and be patient, whilst keeping strong faith in God... I know this'll be wonderful; I can feel it. During that walk I took, there was one word that God continually used as He told me what I needed to do, and that word was "persevere".

From here on out, I'll be doing my best to keep an optimistic outlook on everything, and look at every situation as an opportunity. You'll probably notice some more positive poetry (with a great comeback, in terms of romanticism, seeing as how I've tried to avoid writing about love and romance for the past couple months). I'm trying my best to live peacefully and just enjoy life. There's a lot to look forward to in the upcoming years, other than what's been promised.

For those who might have the slightest bit of curiosity, I'm finally going to get some proper music education. Soon enough, there's a great possibility I'll be receiving drum lessons from my neighbor/friend on Thursdays, while receiving instruction on playing guitar during normal school hours. If I keep working with OpenMPT and possibly get my hands on FL Studio (or maybe even Reason 4.0), I'll be able to master beatmaking, and from there, I can create my dream band.

But I'll get into more detail about this "band" later.

Taking the less traveled path at a fork in the road... I'd just like to make a statement here, this might anger some people, though I'm trying to keep it vague enough to make sense only to those who really know me (or to have the right people ask me questions about this), but lately, I've looked through some really old comments that I'd no idea existed on a profile I've maintained for a couple years (I won't say which site because it'll make things all-the-more obvious) and it just tugged at my heart strings to read some of the things I saw. The hopeless romantic part of me is definitely going crazy right now... But I have to keep my head on straight; I can't lost my mind here. I need to keep my eyes on the bright horizon ahead of me, and keep running towards it until I finally reach it. I can't get distracted, and I shan't be discouraged. God's shown me the way through prophetic dreams (few of which I've detailed via journal), conversations, and random symbolisms in everyday life. He's presented a path to walk... And I'm on it. My life's headed in a better direction... I can feel it.

To conclude this journal and make all of you feel acknowledged... I'd just like to thank everyone for the continued support.

The following people have made a huge impact on me and still continue to... They inspire me... They drive me to continue using my creativity to express and entertain... They help me better myself. I don't know how I would be today without these people. They're all very special... If I don't mention you, please, don't fret; if you're a friend, you're definitely special to me... But these people have made the biggest impact.

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Meagan, you've looked after me like a sister, and I couldn't thank you more for helping me the way you have. Despite any unfortunate circumstances you've been in, you've always been able to help me with my problems, and I really appreciate you going out of your way to make sure I'm alright. You've inspired me to strengthen my Christian faith, and even if you disappear from the internet one day, for me to never be able to speak to again, I'll always remember you. You are truly a God-send. Thank you for all the wisdom.

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Kassie, you've always been here for me, as well. I'd brag about knowing you, seeing as how you're the absolute happiest, most optimistic person in the world! You inspire me to keep my head held high, even in my darkest times, and the positive beam of light you shine can always strike someone with the most profound effect (known to result in spasms of happiness XD). Thank you for all the smiles.

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Cally, you're always great to talk to. Our conversations cover various subjects, usually related to music in some way, shape, or form, but irregardless of the topic, we can always find common ground, despite some of our drastically different beliefs. You help me to enjoy myself a little more, and you're definitely one of the people who's helped me to become more open with my thinking; in fact, I'd be bold enough to say you've played one of the biggest roles in helping me see LGBTs as normal people. I probably wouldn't push for their rights today, if it weren't for you. Thank you for all the conversations and the perspective.

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Kris, to be honest, I have a hard time figuring out what to say because we didn't talk all that much for a while... Disregarding this lack of conversation (due to some undesirable circumstance), I find that I'm able to thank you for also helping me through some of my tougher situations, and though I've spent quite a bit of time helping you (perhaps more than you've helped me), I've still learned from you. You have shown me that I have the strength to make a difference, and though I didn't consider it much until now, you've helped me to open up to people at a distance. You also played a great role in helping me to see LGBTs as "normal", like Cally. You've been a big inspiration to me, and, thank you... I'm not sure what else to say. XD

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Clif, I've not even known you that long, but we've pretty much read each other's life stories within this past year or so! We're connected in ways I have trouble understanding, but it was definitely in God's master plan for us to meet. We have so much in common and the connections we make are baffling... But my lack of understanding only draws me to you more. We've become great friends, almost like brothers, and I'm really glad to be your friend. You've taught me a lot and I hope I've taught you a bit too. Thank you. ^_^

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Jarrett, you've been like a brother to me... Quite literally. We've had more sleepovers than I can count, and we've had more conversations than I could ever remember. We've talked about just about everything there is to talk about, and we've exchanged a good bit of advice as well. Though we have our conflicts from time-to-time, it's cool to just hang out, like we always have. I see you as a (slightly) younger brother, and it's great to be able to give you advice. You were also one of the people who helped me to see my potential to help others, and for all of this, I thank you. I know we'll always be friends; friendship like this can't be broken...

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Kat, you've been like a sister to me. I've not known you nearly as long as Jarrett, but we grew close very quickly, and have exchanged plenty of advice and secrets the past two or three years, now. We butt heads from time-to-time, as many siblings do, but hey, we find our common ground, don't we? It's cool hanging out with you. You've given me some interesting opinions and you REALLY helped me when I needed you. I'm glad to have also been able to help you when you needed me, because you played one of the greatest roles (and I mean one of the GREATEST roles) in helping me realize that I can help people with abilities I may have never recognized without you. I'm sure we'll continue to have a great friendship like this for a long time, and I hope it can last forever. You're a truly extraordinary person...

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Athena, wow, I could say so much to describe how thankful I am to be best friends with you. We've had plenty of ups and downs with the awkward transitions between friendship and relationship, but I'm really happy to see we've finally established a strong, true friendship with minimal-to-no conflict. You, above all others, have played an indescribable role in being an inspiration, helping me appreciate myself, helping me better myself, and showing me that there is always a way, no matter how harsh the circumstances. You've shown me a lot of things I may have never seen, and I can not thank you enough for doing so. I can see this friendship lasting for a very long time, if not forever, like the ones I share with Jarrett and Kat. You always go out of your way to make sure others are alright, even at the cost of your own happiness (and even if you weren't happy in the first place). I don't expect you to fake smiles all the time because I know how much it hurts to... But I appreciate what you've done. Thank you very much, you truly are an amazing friend!

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All of you have been so great to me, and I wish I could thank you in a more elaborate fashion, with some sort of personalized gift sent to each and everyone one of you... But I've not the money to do something so generous (seeing as how 90% of the time or more, I'm broke)... Though if I had the money, I'd definitely do it. Maybe one day. ^_^

I wish I could explain even more in-depth, how happy it makes me to just be friends with all of you, but I'm not sure what else to say. Perhaps a hug would do, for now (this offer doesn't apply to people who I never see though, unless a "cyber-hug" is an acceptable form of gratitude).

Anyways... I must be off now. I've got plenty of sleep to catch up on and a great weekend ahead of me. Thanks for being so great, guys.

I love all of you beyond human comprehension. <3